So…. A married guy… In a monogamous relationship. Why Oh Why am I doing this to myself?

I had not spent that much time talking with Gene online before we met. We knew of each other for quite a while but just hadn’t been talking directly. I was visiting a friend, and he swung by. Not sure if it was to meet me, or just to be social in general. I remember my first chock when I saw him, he wasn’t what i expected, he didn’t look anything like what I thought.
I could try and blame it on being completely exhausted and not really knowing my own name that night.

It didn’t take long for me to adjust, and see the person I had gotten to know online. I saw past the first initial picture I got of him when he’d stepped through the door.
Gene, is intellectually stimulating in an incredible way, he is charming, and very nice and caring for people, always wanting everyone’s best and as I’ve already mentioned he is married, in a monogamous relationship.

I think it took five minutes before I realized how appealing he was to me. How much I wanted to get to know him even better and to get under his skin. I knew I had to get closer, question was how.
It wasn’t just me and my friend there, we were quite a few more people. Which resulted in everyone being quite spread out and talking in clusters. How do you get from this end of the room to the other, when every single seat is taken, and you don’t really know half the people there?

Cleverly I was patient, or thought “Screw it, at least I’ve gotten to see him”, enough to wait for people to start moving around, maybe standing up and generally swapping places. When in a larger group of people it generally happens since people want to try and interact with most of the people present. After a while it started to happen mainly because people wanted to go out smoking.
He ended up sitting next to me on one of the bigger sofas, and I leaned against his leg to half turn and talk to someone else, was quite a comfortable way to sit, and an interesting way to seek physical contact with him.
Later the same evening he ended up in one of the smaller sofas where I had some of my stuff, and basically had made “my” seat when I got there. I took the opportunity to sit myself down there as well and started to collect some of my stuff and packing. Being a smaller sofa, and him not really sitting on the other end of it, we ended up being close to each other. Thighs lined next to each other, me moving around a bit to let myself stroke against him, my foot touching his and so on. Not really looking at each other, just being social and talking with everyone. Incredibly exciting.

This is about as far as I’ve gotten with this, we still talk. I’m noticing myself falling a little bit more every time and I will soon get to see him again. Not sure if there’s anything here, if there’s any feelings, or even anything mutual. I guess time will tell and I will keep cursing myself for falling for monogamous guys.

So.... A married guy... In a monogamous relationship. Why Oh Why am I doing this to myself? I had not spent that much time talking with Gene online before we met. We knew of each other for quite a while but just hadn't been talking directly. I was visiting a friend, and he swung by. ...