You already know that I’m exploring the dominating side of myself and I’m really loving it. But at the same time it’s opened me up again for my submissive side, which I enjoy a lot.
I found a guy, that seems gentle and loving enough to give me what I need. In a nice firm dominant way, while still respecting my boundaries, and carefully exploring how far we can go together.

It did make me think about If Slaves Deserve Love? I had seen this blog a while back but not read it properly. So now I sat down and read it. What Rayne is describing intrigues me, at the same time as I understand it.
For me all of it does not relate to just the M/s relationships though. It also makes me thing about myself in my Polyamorous relationships. I’ve found someone that I truly deeply love but he is married. A part of me makes me think that I’m limiting myself by falling for married guys (there are some others, but I don’t love them, at least not yet), or generally “already in a relationship” kind of guys so that I wont find someone that will let themselves truly love me. Okay, I’m rambling here.

As a sub, a slave or a whore, as he loves to call me, I have to put myself into someone else’s hands and truly trust the person. I don’t believe that you can truly do that without some kind of love, but I’m always aware that there are so many levels of love. I guess there’s a lot of respect needed as well.

I recently engaged in a conversation with a woman who said

I would not dominate someone who I did not respect
Because people I respect I would not want to harm

Her point was that she’s quite intense in her domination that she could most likely do anything to them, but by restricting herself to people she respect she knows she wont.

We all have our limits, and we must learn to live within them. Sometimes going outside of them is a good thing, but do it cautiously, and make sure that everyone involved are aware and actually want to do it.

Yes, even slaves deserve love and so does Masters.

You already know that I'm exploring the dominating side of myself and I'm really loving it. But at the same time it's opened me up again for my submissive side, which I enjoy a lot. I found a guy, that seems gentle and loving enough to give me what I need. In a nice firm ...